“Taking a new step, uttering a new word, is what people fear most.” ― Fyodor Dostoyevsky
Fear is one the the seven demons for us to face. Fear is a conditioned construct of our psyche based on our experiences, thoughts and beliefs. When we think of psyche we think of the mind, however in Greek psyche means soul. When we take that step in to the doorway of the mind and body utilizing our heart we are working with our soul. It’s our own Pandora’s box, our subconscious hidden drives and aspects that steers our lives until we become conscious of the energy that moves us in the choices we make.
I shared an article/post yesterday about facing one of my biggest fears. If I am going to walk my talk I need to share my story fully. I have written in many forms and mediums over the span of my life, but this is a different beast.
Many years ago, one of my mentors, now the President of the company I work for knew I was deeply distraught about a certain change at work. He is a busy man, but has always made time for me valued my input and insights. I remember walking down the hallway and I could see him in his office on the phone. We both travelled quite a bit, but always took a moment to check in. He waved me in his office and signaled me to sit down. Once he got off the phone he looked at me and said “What’s going on?” I shared with him in brief and he instructed me to pick up a book off his bookshelf and locate a particular page to read out loud.
“I must say a word about fear. It is life’s only true opponent. Only fear can defeat life. It is a clever, treacherous adversary, how well I know. It has no decency, respects no law or convention, shows no mercy. It goes for your weakest spot, which it finds with unnerving ease. It begins in your mind, always … so you must fight hard to express it. You must fight hard to shine the light of words upon it. Because if you don’t, if your fear becomes a wordless darkness that you avoid, perhaps even manage to forget, you open yourself to further attacks of fear because you never truly fought the opponent who defeated you.”
― Yann Martel,
Tears started to fall from my eyes, he handed me a tissue and said a few more wise words and sent me on my way. That day changed me. I also knew deep down everything was going to work out and it did.
I am taking the step I have hesitated for years. I am beginning to write down my words onto a page with the intention that what I share, offers insights, inspiration and awareness to the evolving story of life. For a mother, teacher, leader and healer who often listens to others stories, my hope is that many will embrace mine.